As we prepare for our annual women’s conference, I am overwhelmed with emotions. Each year Jesus comes and does such amazingly personal things for each woman, and I can’t wait to see what He is going to do this year.
One of the things that I feel Him moving is in the area of disappointment. The word disappointment has been a much used member of many of our vocabularies, and sometimes an unwelcome house guest that has overstayed its welcome in our hearts. If remained unchecked, disappointment can cloud our hearts and minds with darkness, confusion, and worst of all loneliness.
Disappointing things happen to all of us, sometimes one after another. Most of the time there is nothing we can do to avoid disappointing things. The danger, however, is not disappointing things, situations, or circumstances. But rather, when those things happen and disappointment knocks on our door and asks to stay. You see circumstances change, situations can be worked out, and things come and go. But if we give disappointment permission to speak into our lives, it could stay forever.
In the last couple years, A LOT of disappointing things have happened. If we don't give each disappointing thing to Jesus, then our hearts become heavier and heavier with the weight of unrealized dreams, buried emotion, and pain. That is when I started to get tired, and disappointment came a knocking, and I opened the door. This led to a very dark time in my life, I gave disappointment room in my heart and a microphone, allowing it and its ugly words to echo louder that the still small voice of the Holy Spirit.
Recently, I was in a really bad place, and I was in worship and they sang a song called “Heroes” by Amanda Cook. This song already had significance to me, because it had been a song I have sung before as a weapon of praise. When I heard it, I started to sing along and I was reminded of the line that says “ …you taught my feet to dance upon disappointment…” I knew in that moment I had a choice. To allow disappointment to continue to walk all over me, or to take a stand, kick him out of my heart, and dance upon the disappointing things that come my way.
I believe that as women, disappointing things come at us and try to control us, bind us, and quiet us. I believe it’s time for us to stand up and dance, even if we are crying while we do it. I know that Jesus is going to use this conference to bring His spirit and His truth that will give us the steps to follow to dance on disappointment. I see us as daughters standing on the feet of our papa as He dances us around the room. The anticipation and excitement is so evident for what the Father is going to do in our hearts at the conference. I can’t wait to see you there!
If you are struggling with disappointment and have allowed his voice to be louder than any other voice. Take time right now and imagine that you are taking the microphone away from the darkness and giving it back to Jesus. Walk yourself through a prayer that breaks your bond with depression and disappointment. Ask Jesus what His truth is for every lie that disappointment has spoken to you. Finally, ask the Father for a picture of you dancing in victory! You can do this! It’s time to dance!
- Mercedes Lambey